It's not about me, it's not about me, it's not about me. I have heard this over and over again for years. I was in India in 2005. I have never heard anything so clear as God telling me that this life is not about me. During those days while I was in India, and in the weeks that followed, I heard it everywhere I went. Indirectly, directly, from God's very own holy lips, from my own unholy mind, from every bird I watched and from every kid I hugged. I saw it in the sunsets and I felt it in the penetrating presence of the Lord. It's not about me. Yet, look at my life and I guarantee you would not say, wow, she really lives her life for the Lord. Two years ago is when I clearly heard God telling me to live my life with regard for Him and for the things that He desires for me, yet I am living my life for me just as much as I was then. The idea that this life is not my own is easy...the reality is much harder than I realized.
My Life
Though I am enticed by the freedom you offer
i cannot pry my fingers from my life
my time
my desires
my goals
me.
I have made my life the center of all that matters
and placed you in a small space behind my immediate gratification
my family
my friends
my enjoyment
me.
I've made me into You
and You into less than me.
When I consider your heavens, the work of your fingers, the moon and the stars, which you have set in place, what is man that you are mindful of him, the son of man that you care for him? Psalm 8:3-4
About Me
When I consider your heavens, the work of your fingers, the moon and the stars, which you have set in place, what is man that you are mindful of him, the son of man that you care for him? Psalm 8:3-4
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4 comments:
Lauren,
I can so totally relate...it seems that India does that to a person...or maybe...its not just the place, but the total awareness of God..in that place. I can though, everytime I start the "its about me" syndrome, reflect on the times that I knew, without a doubt, that it isnt. My times spent on mission trips are my most impactful for this reminder and I am sure, that this is part of God's intent.
Thank you for this post, and the gift that it brings to me today
Once again, I love to read your thoughtful reflections. Thank you Lauren - it's so hard sometimes (most of the time) to be human. :0) deAnn
Hey Lauren,
I am so guilty of this. I didn't even have to go to India to hear this message from Him. I hear it constantly and wonder why I am not consistent in my ways of living.
Thank you for sharing!
Love,
Carol
Lauren,
Lauren,
I was privileged to watch this new knowledge begin to unfold. I saw those first very difficult steps you took towards re-orienting your life to God. It has been a beautiful journey to observe…..I can only imagine the joy God feels when He sees how far you have come. Be gentle with yourself and remember that this ‘unfolding’ will continue to happen this side of heaven.
Thank you for your transparency and honesty. It is refreshing.
Love,
Deb
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