The Working World.

This is really over-dramatic. My boss was being a jerk so I wrote this.

He comes into the room
My stomach is in knots
I am tense
My eyes fill before he even speaks
His words pierce my soul
They break my spirit
He leaves before he knows the damage he’s caused
Or worse, perhaps he leaves with a full understanding.

The joy that was mine
Has been suffocated
He has stolen it for his own.

Passion and energy that I once possessed
What seems a lifetime ago
Sneak into my mind and I remember
I remember the unfiltered thoughts
And the ignored warnings from logic
The passion, the energy
I remember them well
They were undirected and foolish, of course
I remember them.

The joy that was mine
Has been suffocated
He has stolen it for his own.

Lost.

Where do I go from here?
I am walking, timidly, slowly,
Through this black space
I can’t see in front of me
Behind
Near or far
I see a black empty space
Where do I go?
Which direction do I choose
When they all seem to lead to nowhere
Or even worse, somewhere
Some unknown somewhere
I cannot know where to go
Unless I know where I am
I thought I knew
I thought I could see
Now I hear and I think and I imagine
But I cannot see
So where do I go from here?
I make a choice and I wait
I wait for the consequence, the result, the outcome
But there is nothing
Black
Dark
Empty
I am lost.
I must have been lost for a long time
But I just realized my position today
I now have a full appreciation
For my situation
I am lost.
The map I was following
Turned out to be a circle
I am where I started
No progress, no gold at the end of the rainbow
Just a circle,
Leading me to where I began.
And so I sit.
I wonder.
I dream.
I wait
To find out where I go from here.

You. (me)

I look into the mirror
Into stranger’s eyes
Into the expanse of the sky.
I look in the rhythm of a song
The words of a poet
The embrace of my love.
I look
And I look
Yet I cannot see You.
I know you are there
Here, with me, around me,
In me.
Yet I cannot see You.
I know of You.
I know about You.
I want to see You.
I long to live my life for You.

(I am captivated
By me.
I sing praises
To me.
I live my life
For me.
It’s not about You,
It’s all about me. )

I want to see You.
(me)
I long to live my life for You.
(me)

I look for You.
I do not see You.
When I look,
I see me.
I look for me.